Lately i barly sleep. I hate not sleeping all I do is think now. I've changed a lot and i cant explain why. All i know is that i dont see anyhing the way i did before. I used to be a strong believer in hope and looking to the future because everything will be okay if you do. But now i know looking to the future and having hope is pointless thinking things will never change and life can and will be amazing just makes it harder when you relize what you thought was wrong. I take my life one day at a time with everything and anything in it. If something doesnt work out or i fail at something i wont really be hurt because i already expected to lose things. No this isnt a bad way of thinking at all. Ya having hope is good in some ways but thats not who i am anymore.
life may or may not work out. who cares what could happen in the future all that matters is whats happening now and everyone can control how they react to problems.

ILY,
Gummy Bear.